Tourist

I'm in Dallas, living it up as a tourist. I've loved hanging out with Giulia & seeing dallas but all today, I've been a little preoccupied....I just did something crazy. I bought airplane tickets to go to WI and see a boy i met in Ecuador. I kinda call him a boy here because he's a year younger than me & goes out to the bars with his friends a lot but he's a senior in undergrad still. But in reality, I liked him because of his good character, how intelligent he is (& maybe that great smile and those blue eyes and muscles).... 
I just bought those tickets but I scared. I don't know what to expect when I go up there but what I'm really thinking about is how much I want to have a significant other. 
I'm scared because I don't know what things are between me & Jimmy, and I really want someone good like him (or him but he lives in Wisconsin...). I'm scared because for some reason I want to stop by & see someone in RR when we go thru Austin. Even though I know he's no good for me & it would never work out & he doesn't deserve my company with the way he sometimes treated me before...when we broke up, he said that we could date again when he moved to RR & I guess on some level part of me is waiting to see what happens to that. Even though, if he couldn't make time for me before when we lived in the same city, why would he travel 2 hrs to see me now? and really, I don't want him back. I want someone better than that. But what I do want is to feel loved again, like I did when I was with him... But I do trust WI more than I ever did trust RR. I just wonder if things could work out between TX & WI? Or what "work out" would even mean to me. All I know is I'm excited to go to WI and just enjoy hanging out. No matter what happens, it'll be an adventure! Oh the places you'll go! Oh the things you do for love.