pretty much only my need to study for medical school and constantly improve myself as a future physician. and the love and support of my family. and gewels and claudia and eddie. That's pretty much all that makes sense to me in my life.
I have reached a new point in my life/mindset. Yes, I am all about medical school and being the best possible medical student. And that will come first, especially next semester when I study for Step 1. But i'm ready for whatever else comes in my life. I am done playing just for fun. I am done with aquatic snails. I am mostly ...okay yes, I am done with broccoli. I want to be open to the possibility of meeting someone seriously. If life throws that at me, great, I'm here. If that doesn't happen anytime soon, great, I'll keep chugging along.
It's just hard to be patient sometimes. I feel like I am so ready, that I have so much love to give and such a desire to be loved. But I have to trust in the Lord. I have faith that everything happens for a reason. I have faith in where I am going in my life.
Since I met Wisconsin, I've known a handful of things about him that I am sure about. 1) he is a great guy 2) he is fun to hang around with 3) (crazy i know) if i somehow ended up married with him, I would be happy, content.
4) (and probably the most important) he is my reminder to have hope. That there are great guys out there and I shouldn't give up if i have to kiss a few frogs along the way.
I've been tossing these thoughts around in my head for a while now but I just got off the phone with Wisconsin. And he told me how his 26 year old friend made the conscious choice to look for "the one" about a year and a half ago and found her this past weekend. ...and all I can think is "reeeally?! seriously? he was ready, so he found her...(as this 22 year old hunk is telling me how ready he is to become a seal and run off with the navy)...whhhhhy do you do this to me life? why?"
Best advice of the week: if it's right, it's easy.
And beyond all these thoughts, it's impossible for me to know what's around the corner. I can hardly say what tomorrow will be like, let alone next semester, next year, etc. One day at a time. But with enthusiasm :)
oh & p.s. I got my hair cut <3
Listening to :
The Good Times Are Killing Me - Modest Mouse
Perfect Games by the Broken West
And just for fun: a 3-D dinosaur pancake!
"I was born with an enormous need for affection, and a terrible need to give it."
~Audrey Hepburn
