Happy Birthday to Me!

I am one happy gal. Today, I'm celebrating my 23rd year!!

And it's been wonderful! I started it all with hot chocolate & roses and a haircut. And then my momma suprised me with my very own Kitchenaid mixer! And it's yellow! hahaha I am sooo excited. At the time I was utterly shocked and it took me a good five minutes to realize what I had just received haha! But it's awesome!

And then I had potato & egg breakfast tacos which were delicious. Seriously, I don't know how the rest of the world lives without breakfast tacos! I remember when I first heard about them I thought it was such a weird idea but now. now, I can't imagine living without them! haha

I just realized that I'm using a whole bunch of exclamation marks. Sorry, but I'm just that excited. Yes, if you were talking with me in person, I would be exclaiming each sentence!

Then, after picking up some breakfast tacos, my mom & I picked up my sister and we headed out for a girl's day. Unfortunately, the weather decided to be 42 and rainy all day long... not the clear blue skies & 60 degrees that it has been all week...because today is such a special day afterall, the weather had to be special too! haha..so we headed to Northstar Mall to look for shoes, instead of our usual La Cantera. Didn't have much luck there but that just means I'll have fun swooning in the shoe department at Nordstroms tomorrow!
We picked up my grandma (Ba) and went to Red Robin where I decided to live off of ice cream for lunch and had a strawberry milkshake! And I got a birthday call from my guy (who I'm missing terribly since he's waay out in NM) so I stepped out in the freezing cold to talk to him. I guess ya really like someone when you'll step out into 30-something degree, cold & rainy weather just to chat with them :)



Then after lunch my Mom, sis & I went to see "It's Complicated", which was cute & so funny! And now, I am enjoying the one peaceful break in my day where I get to sit at home before we go to Sushi Zushi for my family dinner. So I decided to write a quick update to the world. while I sit here and hug my new mixer. Did I mention it's yellow? Just think of all the goodies I'm going to make :o

The Holidays

This was the first year I had really seen the trees change color! how pretty!

Last Week- - - Post MSF. Monday night.

And for the first time I've realized, I don't know what I want beyond getting my M.D.. For soo long, this has been the goal. For so long I had this general idea that I would grow up and get married and have a family and work. Now that I am confident in my ability to gain my M.D., I find that I don't quite know what will be next. And that is exciting. Incredibly exciting.

Earlier this week I was rejected from the International Service Program to go to Honduras, which was half sad. I kinda knew that I botched the interview but I wasnt terribly shaken by the news that I didnt get in (although I kind of expected I would)...my first response was "it wasn't meant to be". And I really believe that. I have such faith now that I am where I am suppose to be, that whatever comes my way, what I have and who I am is all a gift from the Lord. I am confident that I will end up where I should this summer, and I'm really excited to see what I'll be doing.

Recently my interest has been peeked in pediatric oncology (but maybe that's just from watching too many St. Jude's commercials over Thanksgiving break)... I still don't know if I would be able to bear it but it's an interesting idea. And I've ALWAYS been interested in infectious disease and pediatrics and more recently global health. After watching the MSF documentary, I came away realizing that MSF should not be my goal. It is a good ambition to have, to do that sometime in my life but it's not necessarily the next thing or the biggest thing. Right now, I just know it would be awesome to do one day, and hopefully I'll have that chance.



Today, all I know is that tonight I have to study head & neck to do well (hopefully as well as I did on the midblock ) on Friday's exams. In my future, I know that next year (and semester, the start of "Phase II") will be even harder. But I will adjust. Then I will probably be in Round Rock for my clinical years. Who knows who will be in my life then or after that. Hopefully I will be able to keep some of the great friends I'm making now, but I know the only thing you can be sure of is change. So for now, I am happy with now. What I have right now is perfect for now. And hopefully, I'll find some direction about where to go next, all in due time.

Oh and p.s. that documentary made surgery look awesome. Still don't think I would want that life but just saying...

and p.s.s. if anyone is reading this, I hope they do something that challenges them. Do something that scares you. It's quite exciting. Even if you end up getting owned by rock walls and walk away a little shaken up.